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Thank you, guys
Dec. 23rd, 2008 02:25 amI'll be going through and responding to the rest of the individual comments as time permits, but I wanted to thank you all for being supportive of my little fannish meltdown in the last post. I feel like I'm being a drama queen, throwing fits in my LJ, but I hadn't realized how much fandom-related hurt and frustration I'd been bottling up over the last month or so.
But just writing it all out, and backing out of my future ficathon commitments so that I didn't have the stress of feeling like I *had* to stay in the fandom even if I didn't want to, and then reading all of your wonderful and sympathetic comments, made me feel one hell of a lot better. *hugs you all* The fandom isn't perfect any more than the show is, but it's pretty damned awesome sometimes, and you people are the best f'list ever. ^_^ I can't really tell you how much better I feel right now than I have lately. I think just knowing that I *can* walk away if I need to, and I won't have lost most of the relationships that I've built during the last two years, is doing wonders for my peace of mind.
And right now, I'm paradoxically feeling more positive about the show than I have in a while. The sheppard-hc stories will be out in a few days, and someone will be writing a story for *my* prompt too, which is something that I'd totally forgotten in all of my recent fan-angst. I'm actually really looking forward to seeing what they do with that. And there are other fannish things to look forward to (Yuletide!) as well as my new shiny fandom thing, Wiseguy, which we'll be marathoning more in the next few days.
So, yeah. I'll be around. I'll probably be pretty quiet on the SGA front, but I do feel a lot better about the show and the fandom right now, and a lot more confident of my ability to come back to the fandom after the series ends and things calm down a bit. Thank you again for listening. :)
Edited to add, upon further reflection, that I want to make clear I certainly feel everyone else is entitled to their own anger, hurt and disillusionment with the show, for whatever reason. You have every right to feel that way and to vent about it, and I really don't want to imply otherwise; my fannish comfort does not trump your own, especially in your own space. This might be too obvious to bear mentioning, but fandom being what it is, I thought I should. I hope that my earlier post doesn't seem like condemnation or invalidation of your viewpoint.
But just writing it all out, and backing out of my future ficathon commitments so that I didn't have the stress of feeling like I *had* to stay in the fandom even if I didn't want to, and then reading all of your wonderful and sympathetic comments, made me feel one hell of a lot better. *hugs you all* The fandom isn't perfect any more than the show is, but it's pretty damned awesome sometimes, and you people are the best f'list ever. ^_^ I can't really tell you how much better I feel right now than I have lately. I think just knowing that I *can* walk away if I need to, and I won't have lost most of the relationships that I've built during the last two years, is doing wonders for my peace of mind.
And right now, I'm paradoxically feeling more positive about the show than I have in a while. The sheppard-hc stories will be out in a few days, and someone will be writing a story for *my* prompt too, which is something that I'd totally forgotten in all of my recent fan-angst. I'm actually really looking forward to seeing what they do with that. And there are other fannish things to look forward to (Yuletide!) as well as my new shiny fandom thing, Wiseguy, which we'll be marathoning more in the next few days.
So, yeah. I'll be around. I'll probably be pretty quiet on the SGA front, but I do feel a lot better about the show and the fandom right now, and a lot more confident of my ability to come back to the fandom after the series ends and things calm down a bit. Thank you again for listening. :)
Edited to add, upon further reflection, that I want to make clear I certainly feel everyone else is entitled to their own anger, hurt and disillusionment with the show, for whatever reason. You have every right to feel that way and to vent about it, and I really don't want to imply otherwise; my fannish comfort does not trump your own, especially in your own space. This might be too obvious to bear mentioning, but fandom being what it is, I thought I should. I hope that my earlier post doesn't seem like condemnation or invalidation of your viewpoint.